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.age`twentyyyyy (going to be 21!!! omfgggggggg wahahhahah)Y Thursday, May 29, 2008Y
1:11 PM
Whitney Houston - I Will Always Love YouA song where every word would meant in my dear heart..
If I should stay
I would only be in your way
So I'll go, but I know
I'll think of you every step of the way
And I will always love you
I will always love you
You, my darling you
Bittersweet memories
That is all I'm taking with me
So goodbye, please don't cry
We both know I'm not what you, you need
I hope life treats you kind,
And I hope you have all you've dreamed of
And I wish you joy and happiness
But above all this, I wish you love
I will always love you (x3)
I, I will always love you
Darling I love you
I'll always, I'll always love you
Y Wednesday, May 28, 2008Y
3:54 PM
I can breathe...after all weve been through...ive finally decided once and for all..its over between me and him...=)
im very sad and it hurts deeply indeed but i just know that he is not meant for me and he doesnt love me as he thinks he does actually..
nevertheless...always have always will will always be our quote together in my heart!! =)
i sent him my last sms
adapted from out gossip girl joke..haha
but deep down my heart...i meant it! =)
"Although white flags has been raised from both parties... But queen j would like kimg m to know that she did not wish he was like prince d. She understood that they were both 2 diff person. Queen j just wished and hoped king m knew how much she wanted his attention and love, and care. She wanted the relationship to still be very loving cos she knew to keep up the relationship sparks, queen j wanted things to always remain the same whether its 2 years or 5 years of more. King m doesnt know that no one else could make her feel the way he has, not even prince d could take his place. This ending ends in a misunderstanding that broke 2 hearts even when they both still love each. Only he doesnt knows...But queen j walks with pain in her heart but graceful smile on her face. She deeply prays that the world will treat king m kind and hope he'll live better without her love and devotion towards the realtionship. She will truly miss his presense and thank him for giving her so much hapiness and laughters. Thank you is all the queen has left for him...goodbye king M..gossip girl retires here...xoxo nyu nyu klu klu gossip girl.."
i finally realize and i know that i must go through this journey to pass the pain...i know i deserve better...karma baby!! and right now...career is first and i got to focus on getting what i wanna acheive in life!!
in the fist place, the effort put in was just not-the-extra-mile...all edited:SOME of his words are in fact broken promises...i know that he cant be blame as he edited:WE ARE still young...WE still got to grow up and figure OUR journey in life...nevertheless, he is a wonderful guy..=) i really want him to finish his advance diploma..its a wish that i hope will come true..
guys...haha again..i realize my realtionships are all recorded in this blog!!amazing how i look back at my journey through life~~~
27-10-2006 ~ 28-05-2008
ANOTHER..............chapter of my life!!!
thank you meow...thank you...
Y Tuesday, May 20, 2008Y
8:01 AM
haha...its funny how people still log in to my blog..i just type it outt of frustration..
today i feel frustrated..
i dont know whats wrong with me..
i dont know if i am having big dreams..
life..everytime i think bout life..
i think bout how lucky many perople can be and how...
unlucky most people on this planet could be...
fate...we determine our fate..
we determine our future..
i clearly know i can change my life if im determined to..
but did i??
am i??
i dont feel im doing my ever best like last year when i really needed money..
i need money to live well..
i need money to survive...
i really wanna change my life...
i really dont wanna be the stupid julia i use to be..
i wanna be...different...
i wanna live a better live...
i wanna be able to help people when im able too..
it sucks to know i cant help others when i cant even help myself in the first place..
i only got one life to live...
death is just a cycle...
everyone eventually dies...
its how...you live yr life...
i just wanna live the life i wanna live...
dreams....live it!
Y Thursday, May 08, 2008Y
8:48 AM
if you ask me to do the things you want me to do....i would...if u ask me to love you the way you love me....i couldnt...
am i too nice?
do i treat u too nice?
i guess its cause weve been in a long relationship you started showing all your true colours...
your friend yung han once boast and say if my girlfriend ask me to pack foos for her i would pack and drive all the way to her house...he proudly ask you would u do the same..and u confidently say yes...haha....yea rite...
when your friends ask you to watch a movie you say yes...when your friends ask you to go play pool you say yes..when your friends ask you to yum cha you say yes...when your girlfriend ask you to come see her for a while..you give all sorts of reasons...
ask any girl and see...maybe i guess you just dont know what a girl wants...
can u provide me the love? the security that i need?
i guess...the answer is no...
i feel stupid for all the things i did for u....
i feel stupid to walk in the mall and see things that would suit you or the clothes that would make u look good...
i feel stupid for missing you and for wanting to see you at anytime...
i feel stupid to drive all the way down to see you when you tell me you are playing your dota....
i feel stupid to be talking bout what to do on your birthday when its only in JULY...
i feel stupid for just smsing you at any time and hoping will he say he loves me today or not...
should i stop this pain....
should i finally let go....
everytime i do that you will give me all your love....but...only a few days and then its back to square one.....
i guess....its time for me to let go...
im sick of hearing funny stories from certain ppl bout u....
i guess if u really wanna go look for girls..then go ahead...
i find myself to stop caring anymore....
conclusion...you just dunno how lucky you are to have me as your gf....
I GIVE UP.....
let me go...............